Beam of Light

By Moyinoluwa Okunloye

I have been around for a while. I have seen and been through several stages of growths and experiences. But I have yet to see the beginning of any year be so difficult as 2020.

This year started really hot for me and well…. The world. I have gone through all the stages of disappointment, failure and negativity that should probably spread across a long period of time for one person, all within three months. I have dealt with anger, rejection, apprehension, lack, confusion and a lot of uncertainties. But I have mostly prayed, fasted (probably more than I did last year) and lean on people who would not let me go (people who gets angry when they hear that I was threatened). And I feel great because I am encouraged and I hold so tightly to God’s word.

And then there is a virus plaguing the world. Everyone is panicking, people genuinely scared for fear of what could happen if it spreads. And I feel worse, helpless, confused and really dis – organized. I like plans and I already made me some, with work, life, travels, rest and daily activities. But everything is messed up now – I cannot properly be certain of where I will be working from in the next week or if I will have access to everything that I need to do a good job. And I am stressed. Confusion is taking an exaggerated toll on me (this is affecting me more than it should). I can feel myself panicking within me but I look calm.

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Photo credit: Ben White on Unsplash

‘“I am calling a meeting, Jacob. I want everyone back – all the survivors of Israel.

I’ll get them together in one place – like a sheep in a fold, like a cattle in a corral

a milling throng of homebound people!

Then I, God, will burst all confinements and lead them out into the open.

They’ll follow their King. I will be out in front leading them”’ Micah 2:12-13 (MSG).

 

‘God, the Master, The Holy of Israel, has this solemn counsel:

“Your salvation requires you to turn back to me and stop your silly efforts

to save yourselves.

Your strength will come from settling down in complete dependence on me –

The very thing you’ve been unwilling to do. You’ve said, “Nothing doing!

We’ll rush off on horseback!”

You’ll rush off, all right! Just not far enough!

You’ve said, “We’ll ride off on fast horses!”

Do you think your pursuers ride old nags?

Think again: A thousand of you will scatter before one attacker.

Before a mere five you’ll all run off.

There’ll be nothing left of you – a flagpole on a hill with no flag,

A signpost on a roadside with the sign torn off.”

But God’s not finished. He’s waiting around to be gracious to you.

He’s gathering strength to show mercy to you.

God takes the time to do everything right – everything.

Those who wait around for him are the lucky ones’ Isaiah 30: 15-18 (MSG).

This is what I try to remember whenever I am on the verge of panicking – to totally trust and believe that He already went ahead to make things good for me. To remember that sometimes, there is a need for a total breakdown before proper fixing can be done. For as long as I am alive, I will see the victory. I cannot always plan everything out. And that’s okay. It is Okay. It is going to be OKAY!

Featured Photo by Marc – Oliver Jodoin on Unsplash

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