From one addict to another: About the Devilish Masturbation

By ‘Grace’ I was a bit reluctant to share this experience for three reasons? One, I had forgotten how it felt, second, I didn’t know when exactly it stopped and last of all, I feel ashamed of how foolishness and adolescence made me do some things. I must re-emphasize, that I can just recall that…

From one addict to another: The Terminator

By Opeyemi Odejide The sound of my alarm woke me up for the third time after snoozing it off twice and going back to sleep. I decided to wake up by 4:30am daily to plan my day, do some meditations and also pray. But every time my alarm sounds, I tell myself that “I can still…

From one addict to another: “I’M DOING IT AGAIN, OVERTHINKING”

Addiction! The English dictionary defines it as “‘the state of being addicted.’ A habit or practice that damages and jeopardizes one’s life but when ceased can cause trauma, meaning it is detrimental to your wellbeing but you’d rather indulge in it irrespective. It’s a pathological relationship to mood altering.” I don’t understand the last sentence…

From one addict to another: ‘Sometimes, Be Useless’

By Oluwatoyin Adeleye It is strange to fathom, but there are times that I’m so miserable that I almost feel like there’s nothing to be thankful for (even though the religious African in me keeps roaring: “You’re breathing you ungrateful child”!) But sometimes I just want more – no, I need more. I need more…

From one addict to another: Seeking validation from others

I always wanted to be agreeable. Not necessarily because I wanted to be popular but merely as a source of satisfaction.  I wanted to be liked; to be perceived as admirable. And so, I would be in a gathering of young people like myself, but rather than be me, I’d be thinking of how best to conform, look and feel like a part of them.

From one addict to another: Friends

By Oluwafemi Fadiya “Guy please lend me 10k, I really need to make a trip”, he said that night, obviously distressed. I didn’t quite have the money, but I had to find a way.  You see, that had always been my pride, or problem, depending on how you view human relationships. That need to always…

From one addict to another: Shame (Part 2)

By Inyang Edoho   (CONTINUED FROM THE PREVIOUS POST) Later, years after floating around and trying to just live, struggling with the thought of self-harm, attempting to shut down by ingesting about forty or fifty tablets of multivites, I found the father side of God and while that doesn’t have to make sense to anyone,…

From one addict to another: Shame (Part 1)

By Inyang Edoho We’re all outsiders, that’s what permits us to be here. If we belonged, we’d be too much for the earth. I grew up painfully aware of my difference. I was born a lefty, but that didn’t feel like a scar. I really began to feel exotic when I started losing weight. I…